update... here and now after so long

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The red ones are done :)

“I hope that in this year to come, you make mistakes. Because if you are making mistakes, then you are making new things, trying new things, learning, living, pushing yourself, changing yourself, changing your world. You’re doing things you’ve never done before, and more importantly, you’re doing something.” ~ Neil Gaiman

Rather than the traditional resolution list of fad diets, breaking habits and promises that usually gets broken, I decided to create a list of new things to try—things that can be crossed off (or added to) as the year goes on. There’s one for each week of the year—most are free and all are easily achievable!

1. Write a handwritten note and post it to someone you haven’t been in touch with for a while.
2. Make someone a Birthday or celebration cake.
3. Volunteer for the day, a local dog shelter, home for the elderly or at a soup kitchen for the homeless.
4. Take a bus or train to a town, village or city that you’ve never visited. Just go to the station and get on the next one that comes in.
5. Learn meditation, yoga, Pilates or something new that you’ve never tried.
6. Make a scrapbook, print out photographs, emails and attach keepsakes.
7. Go to an outdoor weekend music festival. And sleep under the stars.
8. Learn to play a musical instrument.
9. Spend a whole day in bed watching movies, reading books and snuggling with a loved one.
10. Look up your family tree and find out what you can learn about your ancestors.
11. Sign up for a local community class, learn something new and meet other people who live in your area at the same time.

12. Forgive someone who has hurt you. And maybe let them know.

13. Plant seeds and grow something in a window box or the garden. If possible start a small vegetable garden.
14. Compliment a stranger, it will possibly make their day.
15. Read an old classic. Choose one that’s always caught your attention and be patient if you don’t get into it straight away.
16. Start your own or join a book club.
17. Go to a museum, the cinema or a restaurant alone. Enjoy your own company.
18. Bake cookies and share them at work, when visiting friends or give them to a neighbour that may be on their own.
19. Make your own birthday, anniversary, valentines or celebration cards.
20. Go mountain climbing, hiking, or a long forest walk.
21. Eat lunch outdoors, pack a picnic in a hamper, sit by a lake, the sea, go to a local park or lay out a blanket in the garden.
22. Roller skate. Hire or buy a pair and have fun while toning up.
23. Let someone else order for you in a restaurant. Or cook something you would never normally try.
24. Call someone you haven’t spoken to in a while and make plans to visit.
25. For a period of time, a week, a month or all year, only shop locally. Purchase free-range, ethical and fair-trade goods, buy from independent retailers, at farmer’s markets and give handcrafted creations as presents.
26. Invent your own cocktail, purchase your favourite ingredients and try out something new. Adorn it with umbrellas, fancy stirrers and edible glitter.
27. Play a board game with friends or family. Scrabble, Monopoly and Trivial Pursuit sadly get forgotten due to technology. They are timeless classics and a great way to spend quality time together.
28. Swap the car for a bike for the day. So much more can be absorbed when cycling, plus it’s great exercise.
29. Attend an open mic night. Great entertainment and can be the perfect way to meet new people too.
30. Donate to charity, whether it’s clothes you no longer wear, blankets to the local dog shelter or a sack of carrots to donkeys in India. There are charities everywhere grateful for anything. Even if it’s a $1 donation—it all helps.
31. Make homemade bread. It’s very simple and completely delicious.
32. Switch off all phones, laptops and technology devices. Find different ways to communicate with those close to us and spend quality time with yourself or with others.
33. Have a major clear out. De-clutter, if it’s not pretty, useful or it hasn’t been used in the last 6 months, be ruthless, let it go.
34. Write out a will, a little morbid to think about but it will give you great peace of mind.
35. Take all old books and magazines to a local waiting room, for others to read. Write a note in the front of a book and leave in a public place for others to take on and enjoy and then they can do the same when they’ve finished.
36. Take your camera with you for a whole day and capture everything and anything that takes your interest.
37. Attend a food or wine tasting festival. Most cities hold these events and they are usually free to attend and a great way to try new tastes.
38. Hold a mini movie festival at home. Invite your best friends, tell them to bring a movie they love and spend a whole afternoon and evening together curled up chatting, eating and drinking and sharing old favourites.
39. Organise a clean up with neighbours. Choose a particular hot spot that has turned into an eyesore and get a few people involved to help out. It won’t take long, will be enjoyable working together and you’ll be amazed at the difference a few hours teamwork can make.
40. Get a few friends together and take a ball to the park. Play soccer, rounders, cricket or basketball and ask everyone to bring something to add to a small outdoor snack/picnic afterwards.
41. Make your own soup—nothing tastes better. Especially if you add your homemade bread.
42. Learn a new language, especially if it’s of a country you plan to visit.
43. Go for a swim (if you don’t already.) Or try a brand new water-based activity, water/jet skiing, surfing, canoeing, sailing, kayaking.
44. Skip! It’s free, burns a heap of calories and can be done anywhere.
45. Take a road trip—pack a few necessities, take a map and set out on adventure with no set destination. Explore and investigate different places along the way.
46. Camp out—choose a time when the weather is good, take a barbeque set and sleeping bags and a portable radio. Relax with nature and leave all technology behind.
47. Read the community newsletter or noticeboards. Find out what’s going on locally and get involved in a new activity.
48. Try a new look—choose a new hairstyle or try wearing clothes that you like but wouldn’t normally wear.

49. Write a list of everything we appreciate. Sometimes things can go unnoticed and it’s a great way of becoming more aware and then passing on the gratitude.

50. Watch a sunset, sunrise or both. Find a spot with a good view and settle down with a friend or loved one and enjoy.
51. Write down your life plan. It doesn’t have to be specific, or even achievable. Just a guide for all the things you would like to do and then you can tick and cross off the ones that you want to work towards.
52. Take time out to let those around you know they are loved. Call up, write letters, visit and send the message out strong and clear to those that are most important to you.

peanut became my gorgeous Seileach Alba Ortiz Fiddes

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Magic date on the 24Th June 2016/
Despues de pedir tantos deseos en las Hogueras de San Juan..

waiting for peanuts

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 Bird of the morning, sing for me
Flower of the garden, spring for me
High in the arms of the hideout tree
So sorry, olly olly oxen free
What will I find out?
What will I see?
Turning the handle, turning the key,
time to be lost and time to be free
in a world as wide as awake can be

I will make good time
I will read good books
on tenterhooks,
on tenterhooks
I will see the sights
I will leave good looks
on tenterhooks,
on tenterhooks
I will take what's mine to the next stop,
waiting in line.

In a clockwork world could I clockwork be?
Far from the arms of the hideout tree,
in a shocked, awed world,
should I shocked, awed be?
In an opt-out world with an opt-out me?

I will make good time
I will read good books
on tenterhooks,
on tenterhooks 
 will take what's mine to the next stop, 
waiting in line. 

For the okay life, 
for the okay dream, 
for the okay lie, 
on the okay scene 
I will take what's mine to the next stop, 
waiting, 
on tenterhooks.

my peanut says hi.. 20 weeks

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my peanut grows

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19 Octubre

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autumn is coming

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One of your greatest sources of protection is your breath.

Vayu, is a strong symbol of the power of your breath, the element Wind. He is an important part of the team of vedic Gods, he is known as the ‘life breath of the Gods’, also as a wanderer, and explorer, a messenger of the gods’.

Vayu is also known for his prodigious strength, when angered he becomes severely tempestuous, and can blow down nearly any obstacle, trees, houses, cars, even mountains, so too will you be able to blow down any obstacle when you become a ‘vayu siddha’, a master of breathing, and a master of directing internalized prana.

In protecting yourself from internal demons it is essential to bow to Vayu so that he is on your side. Developing a clear relationship to the ebb and flow rhythm that takes place with unerring regularity within your chest is one of the best means of physically and psychically protecting youself.

The sacred texts teach you that the mind and the breath go together like a person and his/her shadow. When you regulate breath you regulate thought, thus you are using breath control to bring mental order and clarity to your thinking processes.

There’s a mental barbarian inside your mind that is subject to whim, anger, needing to show off, etc and so by connecting the mind with the breath you can subdue that beast and protect yourself from great harm.

Yoga practice can give you the skill to make the strength of the breath greater than the strength of activated klesha’s (afflictions) that cause disturbances in the mind. WOW what a revelation. The strength of Vayu makes him perfectly suited to the task of slaying demons that are generated by your undisciplined mind.

And there’s a very beautiful yoga sutra that says when you’re established in order (Shaucha), you get a desire to protect your body. Its very helpful to begin to be very intent on developing the rhythm of your breath as a means of bringing order and clarity to the field of your mind. Mental agitation happens when your breathing becomes erratic, irregular, or chaotic.

There is a certain logic that comes to your efforts when you learn to trust in and bring forth your breathing rhythms. And then you train yourself to stick to this breathing logic even when the ego or other afflictions attempt to divert you away from breath and into unsafe, irrational, harmful actions.

10 years ago

Glasgow 22^nd June 2005. West end Tinderbox café, Byres Road.

“June 21st marks the longest day and the shortest night in the solar year and brings completion to the dreams we invoked on the Winter Solstice.

Nothing is impossible now. All that awaits the birth of our future ventures is focused intention. What we’ve been holding close to your heart for the past six months is aching to be released into the here and now.

The word solstice means the standing of the sun and it is also time for us to stop, be still, listen to our inner voice, remember past promises to ourselves and make preparations for the road ahead.

Just as at the Winter Solstice, everything began its journey outward towards manifestation.

Summer Solstice begins the process of everything turning inward once more.

Our ancestors, those who lived close to stone circles, would stay up all night and greet the sun as it rose over the carefully aligned structures.

Be careful to record your dreams coming up to the solstice. They will bring messages, awaken your intuition and stir your soul towards achievement. We may feel overwhelmed as the forces of the universe collide with our intentions—but we need to just hold on tight to resolve and make whatever we need to happen, happen.

Courage! All shall be well, and all shall be well, and all manner of things shall be well.

If you feel like a bubble is about to burst, it is! It is the bubble of all that pent up energy that has been brewing since you awoke on the winter solstice and began to expand towards the Possible”

I have had all this engraved in me since I was really young writing and burning wishes at midnight… spells left to the mercy of the Universe.

A frantic bus trip from Edinburgh to Glasgow… I could not be late for this… shower, my lucky green dress and Interpol as soundtrack blurring in my ears….Bus 44 was late… so I had to run from Broomhill Drive.. Run chica, run… you cannot miss this.

Ten years later, I still picture that coffee shop drawing our futures in napkins…. That night my life changed forever. ..Midsummer brought you..,.. serendipities… ? maybe.. 22 is my lucky number.

“You come along on summer days
Tenderly, tastefully

It's so me, we make time
Try to find somebody else
This place is mine

Set the day, you know exactly how I feel
I had my doubts little girl
I'm in love with something real
It could be me, that's changing!

It's so me, we make time
To try and find somebody else
We pass a line

Now season with health
Two lovers walk on lakeside mile
Try pleasing with stealth, rodeo (?)
See the stands long ending path

Oh, how I love you
And in the evening, when we are sleeping
We are sleeping. Oh, we are sleeping”

C’mere, Interpol.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vaDw4CAcXVE

somos agua

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La primavera la sangre altera

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Hello, day.

Today is a day for slowing down, way, way down. For taking deep breaths and deeper breaths still. For going outside and looking up at the sky. (Hello, sky).

Today is a day for feeling your skin and how it wakes up when caressed by wind. For feeling your heart and how it wakes up when acknowledged and accepted. (Hello, heart. I love you, all of you, always).

Today is a day for repeating the words: I am alive, I am alive, I am alive—108 times.

Today is a day for reflection and ever-so-gentle redirection. For asking the question, “How am I doing, really?” and being brave enough to answer honestly—even if the answer hurts, even if the answer is, “I have no idea, really.”

Today is a day for feeling connected to all that ever was, is, will be.

The universe lovingly cradles you in the nook of her left arm, while painting a new supermoon with her right hand, exhaling a solar eclipse, and dancing away the dark.

You are a celestial event in human form. (Can you feel it? Today is a day for feeling it).

Today is a day for giving yourself a hug (because, friend, you deserve a hug), for giving yourself a high five (because, friend, you deserve a high five), for looking in a mirror and greeting your glowing eyes. (Hello, eyes. Oh, how you glow).

Today is a day for trusting in the process of transition and transformation, for answering the call to newness with a resounding “yes.”

Today is a day for rising from your six-month slumber, stretching your aching knees and standing in your power, your truth, your renewed sense of purpose.

Today is a day for shedding your dry, dull, winter armour and revealing your shimmer. (Shimmer, friend, shimmer).

Spring is here, and so are you.

Hello, light.

~

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Tomorrow is the first blank page of a 365 page book. Write a beautiful one! This is a good time for us to see what is to be released, what is to be kept and improved and what is to be brought in. - May the new year bring to you the warmth of love and a light to guide your path towards a positive destination.

updated wish list

I really love "new years" it is just another chance to start over again, the counter is set back.. .. A new life and new chances waiting for you.. it makes you stopping and looking backwards to walk foward, getting rid off sorrows and tragedies, gazing life through child´s eyes.

The checking and balance process is crucial to have a good year,, roaming and getting there, crossing out wishes from my private wishing well..

I started this issue ten years ago.. and still following my dreams...

Never ever gave up///

 Here we go.. these are the ones already achieved:

Current state.. so happy to have all these... so grateful!!

fulfilled: ( CuMplidos)

*Be in love and feel that love back

*living in a foreign country again and for more than a year, finding myself, reinventing my life starting all over again from scratch

*travelling by car around Scotland and Ireland (driving myself)

*sleep in the beach

*see U2 and Bruce Springteen ( 3 times already)  live

*have my own house

*work in Scotland teaching English

*ride a jet sky

*go to music festivals ( Benicassim)  Belladrum festival and the Insider

*sleep in tents in the beach

*Swim in a river

*wear a mini skirt at 31..alassss

*see my sister becoming a woman , a little big woman

*hogmanay in another country ( Ireland, Italy, Scotland, England, Spain, Basque Country)

* See EL BICHO in concert

*have a cat

*have laugh attacks and try to make happy people surrounding me

*see Eoghain for the last time after february 2006

*live in the Canary islands

*speak spanish with him face to face

*find peace of mind and balance

*spend a night in Alhambra palace hotel ( since i started studying... i got this wish this for ages)

*have a car

*a massage in the arab baths in Granada

*visit the Alhambra again

*paragliding

*get the teaching post

*find time for me ..

*get the last tattoo..( I need to fix the Willow though)

*watch movies at night with eog

(get the projector next time)

*see my friend Marcos again in valencia

*live with lolyta

*ski

*go to a spa centre

*run marathons

*come back home at dawn..

*get a fly costume

*come back to Glasgow and get lost... and a coffee in"the Offshore"

*go to the GFT for a film

* travel to New Zealand and Venice, Padova..Murano.. Bologna...

*spend summer in Scotland

*Find a job in Scotland yes!!!

*weak up every morning with a kiss

*Girl trip to Estambul!!!!

 *TRAVEL to TURKEY ( INSTANBUL)

*DANCE FLAMENCO

*CLIMB MASPALOMAS LIGHTHOUSE;;;) oleeeeeeeeee

*sunrise at the lighthouse..

*get married to Eog in a castle!!!

*move my arse to Scotland and live with Eoghain

*speak french and Italian

*dance flamenco..

*learn windsurfing ..

*wake up with Eog every morning

*see the Northen lights

*Sleep by the fireplace of my own house

*Best summer ever to Sardinia... jumping from beach to beach in a boat

*Ibiza

*go to celtic connections festival again

*Do yoga

*plant my willow tree

Los que me quedan:

the ones I still have to fulfill, 

* four L leading my life :Love, laughter, light y Life

*see the croft in Gairlogh built

*build our house wherever

*travel around Europe with a camper van

*see my family very happy

*get old happy and young

*do theatre again

*go to Stonehenge at midsummer night

*travel...,to India, Dubroknick, Argentina ( South America in general), Mexico, Thailand, Greece, ,Canada, Iceland, Norway, Holland, Paris, italy, etc..

*walk Santiago pilgrimage

*ride a harley or similar

*have my baby

*write more

*see estelle, mo, sam, leti, elisa...mike again

(MO; SAM AND MIKE::: achieved)

*be a warrior of light

*never lose my friends in the way.

*see Mervin Smale before he dies

*see Alanis Morrisette

*go to that Mali festival

*go back to the mountain cottage with the fireplace and the storm in Cazorla

*be happy

* See Lolyta becoming the happiest woman on Earth

*have a scootter

*get rid off personal complex and manias

+ get another tattoo with hindu words,????  ( not sure)

*Learn how to knit

*Be able to do a headstand

*Go to a Yoga retreat

* See Scotland becoming an independent Country ( YESSSSSSSSSSSSS)

* Get more massages

I can't be happier.. al the universe is already conspiring...

“I hope that in this year to come, you make mistakes.

Because if you are making mistakes, then you are making new things, trying new things, learning, living, pushing yourself, changing yourself, changing your world. You're doing things you've never done before, and more importantly, you're Doing Something.

So that's my wish for you, and all of us, and my wish for myself. Make New Mistakes. Make glorious, amazing mistakes. Make mistakes nobody's ever made before. Don't freeze, don't stop, don't worry that it isn't good enough, or it isn't perfect, whatever it is: art, or love, or work or family or life.

Whatever it is you're scared of doing, Do it. Make your mistakes, next year and forever.” ~ Neil Gaiman

 And for you all---- I wish you all, the best year of your life

winter is coming

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The red ones are done :)

“I hope that in this year to come, you make mistakes. Because if you are making mistakes, then you are making new things, trying new things, learning, living, pushing yourself, changing yourself, changing your world. You’re doing things you’ve never done before, and more importantly, you’re doing something.” ~ Neil Gaiman

Rather than the traditional resolution list of fad diets, breaking habits and promises that usually gets broken, I decided to create a list of new things to try—things that can be crossed off (or added to) as the year goes on. There’s one for each week of the year—most are free and all are easily achievable!

1. Write a handwritten note and post it to someone you haven’t been in touch with for a while.
2. Make someone a Birthday or celebration cake.
3. Volunteer for the day, a local dog shelter, home for the elderly or at a soup kitchen for the homeless.
4. Take a bus or train to a town, village or city that you’ve never visited. Just go to the station and get on the next one that comes in.
5. Learn meditation, yoga, Pilates or something new that you’ve never tried.
6. Make a scrapbook, print out photographs, emails and attach keepsakes.
7. Go to an outdoor weekend music festival. And sleep under the stars.
8. Learn to play a musical instrument.
9. Spend a whole day in bed watching movies, reading books and snuggling with a loved one.
10. Look up your family tree and find out what you can learn about your ancestors.
11. Sign up for a local community class, learn something new and meet other people who live in your area at the same time.

12. Forgive someone who has hurt you. And maybe let them know.

13. Plant seeds and grow something in a window box or the garden. If possible start a small vegetable garden.
14. Compliment a stranger, it will possibly make their day.
15. Read an old classic. Choose one that’s always caught your attention and be patient if you don’t get into it straight away.
16. Start your own or join a book club.
17. Go to a museum, the cinema or a restaurant alone. Enjoy your own company.
18. Bake cookies and share them at work, when visiting friends or give them to a neighbour that may be on their own.
19. Make your own birthday, anniversary, valentines or celebration cards.
20. Go mountain climbing, hiking, or a long forest walk.
21. Eat lunch outdoors, pack a picnic in a hamper, sit by a lake, the sea, go to a local park or lay out a blanket in the garden.
22. Roller skate. Hire or buy a pair and have fun while toning up.
23. Let someone else order for you in a restaurant. Or cook something you would never normally try.
24. Call someone you haven’t spoken to in a while and make plans to visit.
25. For a period of time, a week, a month or all year, only shop locally. Purchase free-range, ethical and fair-trade goods, buy from independent retailers, at farmer’s markets and give handcrafted creations as presents.
26. Invent your own cocktail, purchase your favourite ingredients and try out something new. Adorn it with umbrellas, fancy stirrers and edible glitter.
27. Play a board game with friends or family. Scrabble, Monopoly and Trivial Pursuit sadly get forgotten due to technology. They are timeless classics and a great way to spend quality time together.
28. Swap the car for a bike for the day. So much more can be absorbed when cycling, plus it’s great exercise.
29. Attend an open mic night. Great entertainment and can be the perfect way to meet new people too.
30. Donate to charity, whether it’s clothes you no longer wear, blankets to the local dog shelter or a sack of carrots to donkeys in India. There are charities everywhere grateful for anything. Even if it’s a $1 donation—it all helps.
31. Make homemade bread. It’s very simple and completely delicious.
32. Switch off all phones, laptops and technology devices. Find different ways to communicate with those close to us and spend quality time with yourself or with others.
33. Have a major clear out. De-clutter, if it’s not pretty, useful or it hasn’t been used in the last 6 months, be ruthless, let it go.
34. Write out a will, a little morbid to think about but it will give you great peace of mind.
35. Take all old books and magazines to a local waiting room, for others to read. Write a note in the front of a book and leave in a public place for others to take on and enjoy and then they can do the same when they’ve finished.
36. Take your camera with you for a whole day and capture everything and anything that takes your interest.
37. Attend a food or wine tasting festival. Most cities hold these events and they are usually free to attend and a great way to try new tastes.
38. Hold a mini movie festival at home. Invite your best friends, tell them to bring a movie they love and spend a whole afternoon and evening together curled up chatting, eating and drinking and sharing old favourites.
39. Organise a clean up with neighbours. Choose a particular hot spot that has turned into an eyesore and get a few people involved to help out. It won’t take long, will be enjoyable working together and you’ll be amazed at the difference a few hours teamwork can make.
40. Get a few friends together and take a ball to the park. Play soccer, rounders, cricket or basketball and ask everyone to bring something to add to a small outdoor snack/picnic afterwards.
41. Make your own soup—nothing tastes better. Especially if you add your homemade bread.
42. Learn a new language, especially if it’s of a country you plan to visit.
43. Go for a swim (if you don’t already.) Or try a brand new water-based activity, water/jet skiing, surfing, canoeing, sailing, kayaking.
44. Skip! It’s free, burns a heap of calories and can be done anywhere.
45. Take a road trip—pack a few necessities, take a map and set out on adventure with no set destination. Explore and investigate different places along the way.
46. Camp out—choose a time when the weather is good, take a barbeque set and sleeping bags and a portable radio. Relax with nature and leave all technology behind.
47. Read the community newsletter or noticeboards. Find out what’s going on locally and get involved in a new activity.
48. Try a new look—choose a new hairstyle or try wearing clothes that you like but wouldn’t normally wear.

49. Write a list of everything we appreciate. Sometimes things can go unnoticed and it’s a great way of becoming more aware and then passing on the gratitude.

50. Watch a sunset, sunrise or both. Find a spot with a good view and settle down with a friend or loved one and enjoy.
51. Write down your life plan. It doesn’t have to be specific, or even achievable. Just a guide for all the things you would like to do and then you can tick and cross off the ones that you want to work towards.
52. Take time out to let those around you know they are loved. Call up, write letters, visit and send the message out strong and clear to those that are most important to you.

autumn!!a summary..

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